Storm

Computer malfunction, dying battery, new laptop…
Broken tooth, paper due, word count=1,700-2,000…
Test moved, need to study, eye sight failing me. STOP!

I put my headphones in and drown out the world and try to find peace in the music and lyrics of this song. Silence, then words of a storm surround me and tell me that everything is going to be alright. Will everything be alright or is this just a phrase to bring some hope?

How long have I been in this storm? The song repeats and I hear the peace in the acapella melody at beginning of the song and find a slight bit of light shining in on my dreary day. The steady rhythm keeps track of the keystrokes of my keyboard as I type this. I feel as if I am floating on a cloud and finding peace in the simplicity of such a timid song…

You will catch me when I fall… God will catch me when I fall and today I have fallen from my happy pedestal and landed in the cave of sadness and disappointment. One minute I’m floating on a cloud, the next I’m in a deep dark cave. I feel as if have let myself down, my family, and all awhile one person looks at me and tells me “I told you so…” Why do you people always find the negative when they should be optimistic about what they have right in front of them? They go to an amazing school in the middle of the mountains, the sun is shining and there is a coming breeze.

Everything will be alright…I come back from spacing out and find myself still sitting in the same chair near the window in the cafeteria and I see how happy people are and I know that I can be like that; I can smile and see the beauty again as the song repeats over and over again. I’ve lost track of how many times I’ve listened to it in the past 24 hours, but I know that it has brought me peace and has drew me away from my doubt and worry. God is here with me and walks with me today as I take each moment, each minute, each hour with a brief sigh and an open-minded smile.

Everything will be alright… I know everything will be alright. My family loves me and knows I work hard; I am no quitter. My friends are my support, my sisters are here for me as well, always open and caring. God is here for me and listens to what I am saying, even if it is through this outlet of express. This relieves the stress, the madness, and the doubt that I have for myself. I know that I can look and still see the positivity in my surroundings, even if I am not in a happy state of mind. But this song is making it easier…over and over again… Everything will be alright, everything will be alright…

I will make it out of this storm and see the sun shine at the end of this dreary hour. Today will be silent, will be strong, will shine and smile as each step is taken to make it to the next goal. Music floods my ears and my soul as I relax and peace brightens my face and I can hear the meaning in the melody: Keep going, everything will be alright. I know it’s alright.